Today I had a somewhat mystical experience. I lay in the sun, in my bedroom under the window, and staring into the bright light I felt elevated, drifting away – lights in my eyes changing from a dark, transcendent red into an amazing blue. I was happy, yet terrified and kept my eyes closed. When I opened them I saw the clouds and everything dissolving into nature, my burning face & hair and I undressed and let the sun warm me entirely. I almost cried with delight, so completely I felt myself and also heat and light.

Time stood still, the second was eternity. I waited until the sun had disappeared behind a large grey cloud. And even that cloud, taking the light away, gave me serenity and nothing but pleasure. For then it was me who carried the light, inside.